Moonlight Dwelling

Dear Diary

I just don't know what I'm going to do about Brady. I know I shouldn't be worried about Nicole because she's in jail and I don't have to see her but I can't help but feel her presence in this relationship. The question I have to answer is whether or not I want to stay with him knowing that he will never get Nicole completely out of his system. She's like a drug to him.

I know he cares about me so it is ridiculous that I am threatened by someone that isn't around but I can't help the way I feel. He does seem determined to prove it to me. I really want things to work out between us since he's such a great guy. I hope things do work out but right now I just don't know with this one issue hanging between us. 

Dear Diary

I don't know what I was thinking when I turned Brady down. We went away and it was amazing. He asked me to marry him and I said no. It just came out. I don't even know what. The weird thing is that I was talking to Gabi about thinking Brady was the one. So if he's the one why didn't I say yes. I think he accepted my explaination. I could see myself marrying him so I don't know why I just didn't say yes. Even Melanie thought I was nuts when I told her that I didn't say yes.

But the more important thing is that Brady doesn't seem like he's going to give up. I'm glad about that because I was such an idiot. I guess it was just so unexpected that I didn't think before I answered him. If he asks me again I'm going to say yes. I would be stupid to not say yes. Brady's such a great guy and I could see myself spending the rest of my life with him. I just don't want to screw things up with him. It would be great if me and Rafe could be happy and in love. I don't think that's too much to ask.