Moonlight Dwelling

Dear Diary

I just don't know what I'm going to do about Brady. I know I shouldn't be worried about Nicole because she's in jail and I don't have to see her but I can't help but feel her presence in this relationship. The question I have to answer is whether or not I want to stay with him knowing that he will never get Nicole completely out of his system. She's like a drug to him.

I know he cares about me so it is ridiculous that I am threatened by someone that isn't around but I can't help the way I feel. He does seem determined to prove it to me. I really want things to work out between us since he's such a great guy. I hope things do work out but right now I just don't know with this one issue hanging between us. 

Dear Diary

I don't know what I was thinking when I turned Brady down. We went away and it was amazing. He asked me to marry him and I said no. It just came out. I don't even know what. The weird thing is that I was talking to Gabi about thinking Brady was the one. So if he's the one why didn't I say yes. I think he accepted my explaination. I could see myself marrying him so I don't know why I just didn't say yes. Even Melanie thought I was nuts when I told her that I didn't say yes.

But the more important thing is that Brady doesn't seem like he's going to give up. I'm glad about that because I was such an idiot. I guess it was just so unexpected that I didn't think before I answered him. If he asks me again I'm going to say yes. I would be stupid to not say yes. Brady's such a great guy and I could see myself spending the rest of my life with him. I just don't want to screw things up with him. It would be great if me and Rafe could be happy and in love. I don't think that's too much to ask.

Dear Diary

Brady asked me to marry him and this time I said yes. He had to tease me first which made me want to punch him in the nose. This time I was ready because there was no way I was going to say no. First he asked if I'd have coffee and next he asked about chocolate cake. That does sound pretty good. He finally did it and I said yes. I still can't figure out why in the world I said no to him the first time. I'm getting married. I think it is long overdue for the Hernandez family to be happy and in love. I just hope Rafe listens to my advice about Sami.

It was strange that EJ came to see me at the pub to offer me a job. It was kind of creepy too. At first he was thanking me for being nice to him while Sydney was missing but then he said he liked the look of me. It was like he was looking at me like I was some kind of acquisition. It was just strange so I don't know what to make of it. I don't want to work for the Dimera family. I do wonder why he wants to give me a job. I just run a pub. I'm not going to take him up on his offer. I certainly don't want to go back to prison and working for that family is nothing but trouble.

Dear Diary

I was able to get Rafe to leave the office. Waving my ring in front of his face got his attention. He really needed to take a break so I got him to go down to the pub. I really want the four of us to be happy. Rafe deserves that and with me getting married I want him to be happy too. I think the Hernandez family deserves it after all we've gone through. I feel like pinching myself to prove that I'm not dreaming but all I have to do is look down at my finger and see the ring to know that Brady asked me to marry him and I said yes.

I am so happy. It is funny how things can just change so quickly. Not that long ago I was worried that I'd be going back to jail and now I'm going to be marrying the man I love. Things just fell into place for me and I couldn't be happier. I almost feel like I'm going to start floating. Things are just so perfect right now and I want them to work for Rafe too. It isn't helping that he's staying at the office too much. I get that he wants to find this monster that kidnapped Sydney but he shouldn't let it consume him. I just want things to work out for both of us since it would be horrible if I was the only one happy.

Sadly things aren't looking very good for Rafe and Sami. I'm hoping they'll work things out. I to take Gabi's advice about eloping. Brady was all for the idea since I'm sure he didn't want to deal with his grandfather. So we're on our way to Santo Domingo so we can get married. We are by ourselves and I'm just thrilled about. I think this was a great idea since planning a wedding would have been a headache and I'm eager to become Mrs Brady Black. I don't even want to think about where we're going to live since I just want to think about Brady and how happy he makes me. He is so cute when he's sleeping. I think I'll see if I can get some sleep myself before we get there.

Dear Diary

I'm going to take this experience as a wakeup call. I'm not going to let that bitch Nicole ruin what I have with Brady. It was like everything that could go wrong went wrong. It all started with my pearls falling all over the floor. The woman that was helping me get ready freaked out and refused to help me pick them up. And she went on about talking pearls. Pearls don't talk. It really upset me and then to make matters worse I find Nicole with her tongue down Brady's throat supposedly giving him a goodbye kiss. That just pissed me off

I can't believe she got out of jail after everything that she did. It just doesn't make any sense. It is just horrible that she's walking around free ready to wreak havoc wherever she goes. She even has the nerve to tihnk that Brady still loves her. Come on that's just ridiculous. She is deluded. I know he loves me and I'm not letting this bitch bring me down. I'm going to marry Brady and we're going to be happy together.

I really didn't expect to run into EJ at the gym. Somehow I would have thought he'd have a gym in that big mansion of his. I was riding the bike like I wanted to tear it apart. I was thinking of Nicole and how much I wanted to rip her apart. Yeah it hasn't been the best of days with my wedding plans getting messed up but when we finally do have our wedding day everything is going to be perfect and Rafe can take care of Mom. It will be my special day after all so he should suffer Mom duty. I might even be willing to return the favor if he gets back together with Sami. 

Maybe Rafe will find a way to get her back to jail where she belongs. The woman is a menace. I know it would make things a lot simpler if she wasn't around. I know she just isn't going to disappear although that would be nice. I just need to keep on guard when she's around. I never thought I'd meet a guy like Brady so I'm going to make sure I keep him. The woman is nothing but trouble. There is no way he could possibly love someone like that. Maybe feel sorry for but not love. I can't let her get to me and I certainly can't show if she does get to me. 

Dear Diary

I started my new job. Instead of Cici who I liked I ended up with Nicole of all people. Talk about a cruel joke but I'm not letting this bitch scare me off. I'm staying put. Brady wanted to find me another job but I'm not letting Nicole win. If anyone leaves I want it to be her. And she can get her own damn coffee. Of course she doesn't drink something that a normal person would. I guess she drinks the bitch coffee.

It was cool holding the camera although I did lie a little bit about the class. I never even bought the book but I pulled it off. Sure it will be a challenge to work with Nicole but I survived prison so I can survive this. She doesn't know who she's messing with. I'd rather be working with anyone else but this is how it is and I'm staying put. Maybe she'll get tired of it and leave. I hope so since I'm sure things can get pretty ugly.